As for getting burned by the same thing over and over, I can completely relate to the kid. I have been a total fuck up when it comes to my driving record, and it didn't effect me until all at once. I've lost my license multiple times and I had to drive to get to and from work to make a living to pay my fines and try to fly a straighter path. I've been ticketed for driving on suspended before. I've done a lot of dumb things over the years.. I'm generally pretty safe, but my driving record indicates otherwise. I never started paying the price for my mistakes until it all hit at once and by then it was too late. Earlier this year I lost my license several times back to back because of a mixture of things--incidents that happened last year where I got a few points for a speeding ticket or two, and since I was on DMV probation I lost it again while it was already taken. I got a letter from the DMV indicating that I would be eligible to pay the reinstatement fee and get it back on a certain date, so I went on that day to get it back only to find that it had been resuspended that very same day. That happened a total of three times in 2008 where my license was suspended and I never even had a chance to get it back. One of them was a mistake from the court where they indicated to the DMV that I had unpaid fines, but I've never left the court without paying my fines. Did that matter? No. License was still gone. Three times suspended this year! All I wanted was to get my shit together, and get my life back on track. I've been through a lot of shit this year! When you want something so badly and it's sort of within reach, you might make a bad decision that you would otherwise never make. I was so close to getting my license back in July and got popped speeding on a country road I was familiar with and unfortunately I was driving on a suspended license at that time, so I freaked out and made a poor decision. I wasn't thinking about the consequences of running... I was thinking about the consequences of being impounded, going to jail, losing my license that much longer, being fined, etc. I've ALWAYS manned up, pulled over, and accepted the consequences for my actions. ALWAYS! Well, this time I didn't. I knew what was going to happen if I did and although it was my own fault, it was going to put my life back into the spin cycle and I didn't want to let that happen. The messed up part about the situation is that I wouldn't be in this mess right now if I had just denied responsibility, but I tried to do the right thing and I'm going to be used as an example.

I'm tired of going into court and seeing people get away with DUI's, drug charges, etc. Why is the punishment for speeding more harsh than the punishment for drinking and driving or for selling heroin? Yes, selling heroin! When I was at my arraignment there was a guy before me that was in there for distributing HEROIN! You know what they told him? They told him he didn't need an attorney since it was his first charge for dealing drugs and they would waive jail time. WHY? That's what I don't understand. I'm facing FIVE YEARS! A heroin dealer gets off with a slap on the wrist, just like the guys I always see with their 2nd and 3rd DUI's???

All I'm saying is that there are a lot of things that go through your head that you can't imagine unless you're in that situation facing what you're facing. I did something stupid, and I'm going to be paying for it for the rest of my life and I will always regret it. No one deserves to die over something of that nature. No one.